March 2010
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In more exciting news.....
Our custom couch is being delivered tomorrow between 3-7. It has been 8 WEEKS!!!
This means I can do my Friday bedrest on the awesome comfy chaise lounge instead of in my bed!
Also some patio furniture may be purchased this weekend for our balcony…..
Its the little things people.
Can't say I am shocked.....
Change of plans. As stated above, I am not surprised. What about this has been anything but having to let go of my control freak tendencies and deal with things as they come?
Apparently I am not responding as well this cycle. As of now I have 2 follicles and one is 16 and the other is 14. Last time they were 20 and 18 if I remember right. So we are not doing the IUI tomorrow but waiting until...
Happy Passover
To anyone celebrating tonight!
We are hosting a small Seder at our house. I pre-ordered the seder plate from The Godess and the Grocer… Shhh!!!! I am making the matzah ball soup from scratch though so I think I can get away with it.
I adore my best friend...
And her response to my original email below:
From: Jessica Sent: Friday, March 26, 2010 1:24 PM To: Amy Subject: RE: so sick
What will make you feel better (choose any of the following)
Success stories about fertility and not losing hope
For me to hit someone in the face for you
Ice cream
Watching your wedding video with you next week
Planning my wedding and letting you make more...
Woaahh Chicago
Holy hell. I know we are the windy city but I read somewhere that is because our politicians are so LONG winded but today we are really living up to the name.
I literally stumbled walking into a huge wind tunnel coming off of the lake in between two huge buildings.
Can you please get warm again? That was really fun for those 24 hours!
Thanks,
Love a severly cold and windblown lover of this...
So pretty for my house and cheap as hell!! →
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Pigs Flew
So last night I caved and did the “Infertility yoga and meditation” DVD. This is very hard for me as I am extremely cynical and doubtful of non western Dr ways. I am sure it works for some people but I believe that a big portion of it is psychological and if you can’t buy in to it then the chances are very low that it will work for you. (stepping off my soap box now)
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Clomid Crazies
Are BACK in full force today. In all their glory. If we are being totally honest they were back last night. My poor, poor husband….
I really, really, really HATE wishing time away but it is all I find myself doing lately. I would love to be able to stop and be more in the moment but it is becoming more and more difficult as the days go by.
On the brightside, my best friend has been in...
Here we go again.....
Day 1 of Clomid Round 2 was last night… Doing alright so far…..
I think we are better prepared this time around. We know what to expect and what we are going to do differently to help ease my mental issues. I am done taking it on Thursday. Last time I was done taking it, it eased up a little, even though that is not typically how it works. Fingers crossed.
Kind of funny tidbit: Our...
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Just a note....
Telling me how much daycare and private schooling costs in Chicago does not deter me from wanting a baby.
“Daycare was at least 17K a year and now little Susies private school tuition is upwards of 20K, it is so expensive, are you sure you really want one?”
Um, yes, I am the person over here who is paying money to try and GET pregnant. I am pretty sure I have done the cost analysis...
Thank you....
Thank you to everyone who has reblogged, commented and emailed me today. I started this blog to just have a place to word vomit while I went through everything and to keep track of how insane life has been as of late. I never expected the support, kind emails and words that have been sent my way.
It is the most amazing bonus and I am so grateful that people care to read along and our wishing that...
“If I lose my fame and fortune
(It really don’t matter)
And my home is on the...”
– Whitney - Our first dance was to Your love is my love….has been “our song” for almost 6 years now!
Rollercoaster.
Thats all.
3-4 more days.
Done
I am finished whining.
There are so many women out there who are going through this process and paying for it completely out of pocket. We have amazing coverage and have already spent $600 not including acupuncture.
There are women who have had to save YEARS just to be able to do what we are doing.
This leaves me absolutely no room to bitch and whine……
Jumping out of my skin
I know, I know, I have been super whiny lately. I AM SO SLLOOOOOOW at work and it is killing me. I need to step the eff away from google and message boards. I am slowly driving myself insane.
This 2 week wait is the worst I have ever experienced. I am trying to just keep thinking of the good news we got regarding G’s job yesterday but lets be honest….THIS IS SO MUCH MORE IMPORTANT....
Tatiana Mikhailovna: Yesterday →
The song came on my pandora station this morning and it brought me right back to my first memories of this song.
It was 1996 and life was tough. We moved back to Russia because we ran out of money to continue staying in England. My dad had hit a roadblock with his dissertation and was in the…
This song reminds me of my Dad as well. Anything Beatles does……
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“Just so you know Dr K asked me what I think kept us strong throughout the last...”
– My kick ass husband
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Tough one
I had a rough day yesterday. I have been filled with positivity since Friday (which is rare if you know me) and all of a sudden I woke up yesterday convinced that it didn’t work and we would be doing this again. I just couldn’t shake this bad feeling. I have no idea where it came from.
Today. I am better. I am not back 100% to the positivity I had before but I am definitely better...
“Our families help us see where we have come from so that we may more clearly...”
– Wow - this really hit home for me…….
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I hate Mondays
Along with pretty much everyone else.
Work is so slow and I am slowly and painfully torturing myself all day. It is going to be a long ass week.
I did however remember that there is one reason I love Monday’s aside from Gossip Girl starting back up tonight………………..
Dr. Phil’s family in crisis. I DVR this and watch it the second I get home from work...
Need a hobby
Aside from trash mag reading, bad reality tv and my kindle….
Otherwise I don’t know how I am going to make it through this “two week wait.” It is by far the worst one we have gone through since we started trying. It just feels like there is so much more on the line.
Of course the week I was on Clomid was the busiest I have been at work and now am dead here.
I am going...
Two weeks.
It is done. We were there for about 2 1/2 hours and it is all done. They say it takes a village to raise a child but did they ever say it takes a village to conceive one? We counted 4 medical professionals today that will have played a role in us becoming pregnant if this works.
Gary held my hand so we were at least touching at the time of insemination. :)
I am sort of an emotional mess. I...
Request.
I want to stock up my Kindle with books for tomorrow/weekend. I would like to read somewhat lighthearted/happy ended material but don’t love a ton of “chick lit.”
Any suggestions?
It's ON!
We are all set for tomorrow morning! I had the ultrasound and I have 2 great follicles, one is 16 and the other is 20!! I got the trigger shot that will cause one or both of them to break through and become eggs and hopefully one or both will become our baby/babies!
It was so funny because the nurse told G that after he gives his specimen, he is free to leave for work. I told him he is staying...
Tomorrow
I am keeping my fingers crossed that everything is going to go good tomorrow, that we are able to trigger, that my lining is good and that we can schedule the IUI for Friday and that everything goes off without a hitch!
If we have the IUI on Friday I am supposed to lay low for the day and night. Trust that I will be M -I -L -K -I -N -G the crap outta that one. I’m thinking trash mags,...
“My dear friend, I am very proud of you. You are very strong even though you may...”
– My BFF Jess in an email to me today
What not to say...
Someone posted this on a message board that I read about infertility. It cracks me up. I apologize in advance if it is offensive to anyone! The “stand on your head” response might be my favorite!!!
Just Relax.” Thanks for that gem! So useful and helpful to my situation. I’ll tell you this: the first 6 months, I was SO relaxed. I was Al Bundy, hands down my pants while...
Are you raising an Douchebag? →
I don’t know why but this has me seriously cracking up right now!
Dr. Awesome
We are seeing him today at 3:30 to find out our protocol for what we are going to do if this doesn’t work or if I am not responding. He may want us to go straight to IUI after this cycle if the Clomid has thinned my lining at all.
I feel like this is such a rollercoaster. I am so excited at times and then I get so scared and don’t want to get my hopes up too much. I also don’t...
